So long, beloved.
You are now someone else’s
But still my dearest.
–Almost (KC Moroño, 2010)
I know. This is a post more appropriate for my personal blog, but I want to share what I have learned from New Social Media just recently.
New Social Media can do as much as to break your heart. Or be a tool for breaking your heart.
I found out that my ultimate crush (we can also say “love”), who I have been (a little) close to, is courting another girl. Guess where I heard (or read) about it: yes, on Facebook, the best Social Media platform to play with your feelings.
What I did with Facebook
Primarily, it was Facebook’s fault. Had he not been a Facebook contact, then I wouldn’t have found out about it. I could have just moved on with my life, loving him in my own fantasy world, writing him letters he will never read, and including his name in the letter to be opened after I die. But it wasn’t the case; in fact, I became too much obsessed that I have a separate friend list for him so that he’s easier to follow (or stalk).
Innocence is bliss, indeed.
After finding out WHAT is going on, I closed that perpetually open chatbox which used to light up when he would talk to me, and hid all his future updates from my News Feed. I could not go as far as to delete him from my friends list, because seriously, I still… you know.
What I did on and outside Facebook
You know me; I’m an emotional blogger and writer (say hello to this blog post). After I found out and the tears have subsided, I wrote a poem (or whatever you may call it) to express everything. I promised that after writing that poem, I’m over and done (but again, say hello to this blog post). I posted it as a note on Facebook, and also as an entry on my personal blog, because as what I have said on my previous entry, it feels so good to just shout your feelings on the cyberworld.
And some comments can also make you feel good.
I also went to Youtube to watch crazy videos and forget about what happened. I watched bloopers of my favourite TV show, Chuck, and listened to feel-good music. I engrossed myself in my part-time job, teaching English to Japanese students via Skype.
What I did outside New Social Media
Having a cousin, a brother, and a lola that are always ready to lend their ears beats every New Social Media platform. It was to them that I poured out everything. They shared their words of advice, the ever so gasgas but still helpful line: “He’s not the one for you”, and taps on the shoulder. And then I felt better.
What I have learned
1. If cyber stalking can be avoided, please avoid it. Trust me, it never did me good.
2. Do not wait for the pain before you surrender. It’s crazy how I never learned before.
3. New Social Media can be a tool for breaking your heart.
4. New Social Media can help you cope with a broken heart.
5. Face-to-Face conversations with people who actually care is still the best.
And the best and most important lesson:
6. Always trust in the Lord and believe in His plans for you.